SISTERS.

 "If you want to do really important and big things in life, you can't do any of them alone. The best team is your siblings."
-Deepak Chopra

                                                 

"It's like we weren't supposed to end up together, but couldn't help but find each other."

 
I love my sisters more than anything.

Thank you for teaching me, guiding me, holding me, pushing me, dancing with me, walking with me, & most of all, loving me.

 Perfect examples of who I want to be.

 

 I don't know where to begin to describe the relationship I have with these three girls.

 Each one of us are completely different from the other. 

Of course there have been the ups & the downs.

But I can say with full confidence that no family has the near complications that we do.

I can also say that no family can relate to the blessings that my family was given.

~Layci Danielle~ Jaide Alexandra~Savannah Frances Lee~

I.XVII.XV

At my funeral, I want no one to see me. Just a rectangular Box holding what they thought they knew. 

A happy wondrous girl. 

A girl that loves them very much. 

A girl that would do anything for her family. 

A girl that while writing this, can't bare to picture the confusion on her nieces and nephews faces as her big sister try to explain to them why they don't see Tinzy anymore. 

A girl that has so much love in her heart for the simplicity life handed her. 

A girl that isn't strong, but head strong. 

A girl that cares...for everything. Fine arts and beauty. Friends and family. Cared about opinions and reasons. 

A girl that wanted nothing but good in the world. 

A girl that misunderstood even the most simplest things. 

A girl on search for answers. Fascinated with poetry and colors. 

A girl that loves smiles and the smell of Christmas. 

A girl that isn't afraid to say she loved the rainy days more than the sunny ones.  

I want everyone to see a box full of someone they didn't truly know.

 But wish they did. 

Sometimes you have to dig six feet before you find out the truth.

Romans I.IX

      " God, whom I serve in my spirit in preaching the gospel of his Son, is my witness how constantly I remember you."

IV.VI.XV

I never thought that I wouldn't win.

For some reason, it didn't cross my mind.

You came along, offering a mortal sin.

But soon to be gone because your offer was declined.

I came to believe, you'd just be there when I called.

Giving me some sort of latch.

Although, I could see through your eyes you were appalled.

You refused to leave me dispatched.

You suffered & lost, but never put up a fight.

No longer on top to be royal.

Our friendship was fading to black & white.

But you were still so patient, still kind, & loyal.

So what did I do to deserve all this pain?

To watch you smile, be happy, & exceed.

Well I sat around acting like I was the reign.

Now it's my heart, on the floor, left to bleed.

:Rb

ca·ma·ra·de·rie

           "One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood."                                         

                                                                -Lucius Annaeus Seneca

~ I believe that the trials that we are faced with are made for only what you, and those close to you can handle. ~

       ~ 2008 handed me a box that took a few weeks to open, but what was inside, that was something I              would had never guessed to be the greatest gift I could receive for the years later on. ~

       Never in my life have I thanked god so

   much for someone who was once a stranger.

                                                                             

~ Someone who danced  throughout all my plagues. ~

~ Someone who, no matter what, supported me. ~                                                

~ Someone who could never be replaced. ~

                                                                           

"If your friend jumped off a bridge, would you?" Prolly...

Somebody that I just can't hate for being absolutely stunning. 

~ A best friend, that you say you'd die for.
A best friend, that you never fight with.
A best friend, that you would literally do anything for if she would ask.
A best friend that you don't think you could have survived without.
A best friend that you never argue with because she is always right. (yeah right.) lol.
A best friend that isn't just a best friend.

She's my sister. ~

 IV.II.XV

IV.II.XV

         We always talk about what we need. Saying that we can not survive without a certain noun. Whether it is a sibling, boyfriend, morning coffee, blanky, etc. Why do we so easily give our independence up to these things? Because we are uncomfortable doing the simple everyday job of living on our own? Because we are too afraid to know what it will be like without them? Because without these little things that seem like such a huge part of our lives, we would not have anything to occupy our minds with that give the impression of helping with our simple everyday job of living. They call it a blessing to wake up every morning that we do, because it means that God is giving you a "second chance". If that is true, then why? Why am i given so many chances to show that i am not strong enough to live my life without depending on something or someone? I cannot have people telling me that i just need to rely only on my savior, and look forward, because no matter how hard i try to read the bible, go to church every sunday, and share with others, I will still be calling my sister after every bad day, holding the warm hugs from my best friend, use medley sources for extra energy, and sleep with the same blanket that i have been for the last sixteen years.
 "We don't have instructions, we have strangers telling us to believe in God, save yourself for marriage, don't drink, don't smoke, don't lie, don't steal, don't cheat, don't be disrespectful. But for what? For the convenience of everyone else? To make it through the gates of heaven?" -JPM